My good bye to 8 years...

Sometimes I never can fathom why things are the way they are. So many good things have been happening. But it's like I got the love of my life back. My soul mate. I get the best most wonderous job ever. The most wonderful boss and co workers. They're my family. I get to achieve my dreams finally. I have it made totally. Even though I don't make money much but it's the fact I am doing what I love so much. And all this. I lose the one person I love more than anything. Everyone else is proving to me what true friendship is all about. So those of you who stood by me. Thank you. I love all of you. Sorry I'm talking in riddles. It happens when I'm suffering a heartache. Let's just say .. I decided after 8 years to end something I struggled to keep together. This time there's no going back. I'm tired and emotionally exhausted. I hope that one day that person will know that no matter what I love her. Always. But what has been going on for months is killing me. Litereally. I'm not happy. I have to protect Ami. I have to make Ami happy before I can make anyone else happy. God comes first. I come next. Now .. a nap ... some chocolates and we'll see what tomrrow brings. Praise god for giving me clarity and the strenth to get through this ( please help me stay sane ... ) . I'm thankful for the good memories. And why am I posting my heart out for the world to see? Cause there's other's who need this insight. I hope you all don't have to go through something like this to relize that you're important. Always. Don't let anyone destroy you or take you down. Stand tall head up. And know that no matter what god will always be there to get you out of it. When temptation or problems come your way. God will find a way out for you. You can be sure of it. Bless ya'll