Talk to the Hand. Oooh yaaas talk to my hand! LoL

Seriously I gotta stop  taking all this time to post.   But I did have a reason though.   Even though some  was lack of motivation.  Some was lack of inspiration.   Most was income based.   And health based.  

As you know I'm going blind.  I'm also deaf.  I get questions a lot "How do you see what you're doing"   My smart ass comment usually is "Very carefully"   But on a serious note. I have a small window that I can see from.  nails you just need to see what's in front of you.  If I was hearing it would be no problem.   I could talk without looking up.   Lately  it's been depressing me so much that doing my job   reminds me of my disability.  Reminds me .. "Hey you're deaf too  remember that"   I can't hear you unless I see you.  Now you can imagine how scared spitless I am about becoming blind.  But I hold on to the hope  that my central vision will always be good.   Pertaining I don't get glaucoma or cataracts.  

Oh yeah did I mention I'm diabetic too?  Its hereditary.   My sister has Glaucoma .. my brother is diabetic.  My dad is blind and diabetic too.   Despite that .. I thank god every day that my siblings don't hate me.   For what our parents did.   I rarely talk to them.  I never met t hem but yet the love is there at least from me.  What would I do if I lost any of my siblings before I could meet them?  I'm  not sure how I would survive that.  Hard enough knowing I may never get to see and tell my biological dad thank you for giving my mom me.   I just want to  be able to look at them with my own eyes.  Hear them with my own ears.   Hug them with my own arms.   I want to know what it feels like to be a daughter to a man.  A sister to my siblings.  And an Aunt to  my neices and nephews.  Yeah .. that love from me is unconditional.   I can  honestly look at them on facebook and see ..   where my  love for things came from.  I share it with them. I'm proud of that fact.   Specially my sister I share a birthday with.   I probably if I had grown up with  them I would have idolized her.   I kind of idolize her quietly (lol )   Strong woman of worth.  I want to be strong like her.  

ANYHOO!   So  this blog is supposed to be about nails and myself.   So you get an idea of what has been up for the last two years.   I did mention I think that i went back to beauty school. Now I am a full fledged cosmetologist!   I got my license and all.  Now I really want to get back into doing nails and hair.   I can't wait for my mentor to  open her salon.  Id o want to go back  to school to become a teacher.   They're my extended family.   That school / salon is my home and I want to go home.  

So  right now I'm working on getting my debt cleared up.  So I can  one day  open my own salon or at least my own studio.  Do nails  at MY pace.  MY time.    So   problem is finding a place I can turn into a studio  and making sure I can afford it on my own income.  And  hopefully  get a following.   Or finding a salon that will allow me to do that.  I admit.   For me being a nail tech or stylist isn't about the money. It's the interaction with the clients and  having fun with them.    My clients are my friends and part of my family.   That's just me.   Bring me your hands .. I will cherish them.   I will treat you the way I want you to treat me. Like a friend. I will be honest with you if something is right or wrong.   Tell me your  woe's and your joy.   I will listen and offer advice.    If advice is wanted that is.   I won't lie for you but I won't divulge  what is told to me.   Oh  and politics?   That's a big iffy there.   I don't quite recommend talking about it. Unless you're like me.  You respect other people's  choices and beliefs.  And don't go shoving it down  our throats  and fighting with anyone to  accept yours.  

My salon?   Would be like Beauty shop  with Queen Latifa.    That's what I want.   I want that atmosphere.  I want that love.  I want that crazy collard greens  lady.   I want people to come over sit on the couch hang out get their hair did / nails did (laughs)    I want my customers and friends leaving the salon feeling .. they're the Phenomenal woman!  Now .. just to get the  moohlah to do that.  

But  it will happen ..  I'm 40 years old now.   Let's get this party started eh?