Yes I know I need to stop taking forever to post.   Sometimes I forget sometimes I just can't be bothered.  

SO ...  HI HI HI My peoples!

Well I need my blog today. So much is going on.  Trying to find a job.  Trying to come to terms with going blind and being deaf still.    Trying to accept and acknowledge the fact ..   15 years ago  I could do anything.   Now I have to learn to realize .. I can't always do the things  I was capable of.  I must learn to accept my limitations and adapt.    But it's not easy.   Just .. not so easy.  

I have to force myself to THINK like a blind person.   I'm a VERY Very ..  did I mention VERY  visual person?   I live on all thins visual.   The worst thing that can happen to a visual person. Who tends to be an artist.  Is going blind.  

"But Ami you're typing.   You can read this. You can't be blind"

Blind is a catch all phrase for visual impairment.  I hate and loath using the word impairment.  It implies to me that I'm a broken doll who can be fixed.   Well bud/buddette.   You can't fix these baby browns.

So my field of vison?  EH  it's been a few years I'll get back to you on that when I go see my  beloved Doctor Pierce.   Wonderful doctor.    Anyhoo ..  so my field of vision is I have no  peripheral vision.  It's also  legally called - Retinitus Pigmentosa -   But because I'm deaf  I have what's called  Usher's Syndrome type 3.   Dude I got a rare disease!   And get this. It don't effect your intelligence level or your health.  WELL ... about that.   I got the bad end of the clumsy/balance part so yeah .. bumping into thins and tripping over a floating cat hair is hazardous to your health.   *laughs*     But seriously I'm glad it's type 3.   Albeit that it's rare.  It's just  I'm lucky. It's slow progressing.   It's really interesting just how rare it is and what group of people it shows up in.   Yeah cool huh ..   Check this link.  It will open in a new window.  Otherwise read on my loyal peoples!

About Usher's syndrome type 3

As I had said I have a lot going on.   My hearing dog ( no not certified  but personally trained by me ) she's also my  keep me sane pupper.   Boo.   She has a growth on her right side and just  seems to have grown BIGGER since October. I said if it went pass being  ping pong ball then we'll take her to the vet soon as I get the money saved up.  Well it swelled up to  I guess softball size it's a handful.  I don't know how big a soft ball is.  I don't go palming people's softballs!   *pun intended*    But either way it grew triple the size  during the christmas holidays.  

I have it all explained on my gofundme page.   I can not believe I actually set one up.  I'm embarrassed to ask for money.  But still this is my baby. She keeps me sane.   Keeps me grounded.   She's my furbaby and my family.   I posted it on Imgur the other day too ..  checked it the 12 hours later. Only to be dismayed by the fact  a negative 8 points.   WHAT?!!   It's sad and it hurts.  But  I understand.  You can only trust people so much on the internet.    But my fiance Russ was so kind he clicked like so that it became a -7    It still  was sweet so that made my day.     So  if you want to donate please it would help. But I'm really really appreciating the prayers even more.  So far so good.   But we're not out of the woods yet. *sighs*

So She has surgery  on Jan 23rd.  Simple surgery but we still have to worry over the fact.  Once they float the  tumor in water. It can go two ways.  Float an the news is good.  Sink ..  she has cancer or it's a bad thing.    I'm just ..   it's hard.   4 years ago I lost my Georgie.   Nov 16 we lost our 17 year old cat Sigmund.   I don't want to lose  Boo.  I'm still lamenting over it.  

Not to mention being financially strapped.  I'm talking every  dime in my name goes to bills.   Least I am able to pay them. Just getting them paid off  to keep from getting further in debt is a killer.   So the donation helps pay for her care credit.   It's one more bill I cannot afford  the monthly fee's but for her ..   I'll go into debt  to keep her healthy and safe.  



So thank you for reading this. I don't feel so overwhelmed.    If you got any questions or  advice.  Feel free to post and ask or tell.